THE BEGINNING OF THE END

My feet are killing me, but I'm thrilled I've thrown the heels away. 

After 25 years of living  the full London experience, I, like many others have grown tired of the rat race and am beginning to feel like more of a generator for a huge power system than an actual human being. It is easy to get into the same cycles and forget that provided you don't have any attachments, ailments or heavy responsibilities, you can generate an income and travel. 

I have been pondering on what travel actually means to me and i'm not sure I  have the answers just yet. This is why I, along with millions of others am embarking on a trip to a crowd favorite, South east Asia! I have dipped my toes in before, spending a couple of lush weeks in the Philippines, courtesy of a close friend Sam who very kindly showed me what he could of his origins and family background and who also courageously took on the 5 year test to become a beautiful shining UK citizen! Looking back on the trip my heart soars, I have forgotten any money that I spent or hassle I experienced getting there  and took with me only the experiences that brought me a world of joy and laughter. I still visit that place in my mind often.  Now i understand that my place is a place of privilege and tourism is exactly that, a tour. I am not ignorant to the on goings and underbellies that slip and slide between the cracks of the ever growing social media marketing, I do watch out not to succumb to the beau ideal of the 5 second reels and never ending bombardment of how to live a better life with these 3 steps. 

So, I'm at heathrow terminal 4, waiting impatiently for my flight to Kuwait, where I will transit to Dubai and then finally landing in Bangkok aka the land of smiles. I have only 1 thing so far that  I wish to do upon arrival (not until Saturday midday, help) and that will consist of me lying face down in a low lit massage parlour and aggressively having somebody iron out the creases in my muscles. A completely open ended trip is a new concept to me so my stomach is doing flips in anticipation for the unknown, I have a deep feeling that this will open me up to new streams of consciousness and my brain is definitely needing a refresher. Lets see where the journey takes me.

Love 

Layla